Happy Chinese New Year

There weren't as many "are you attached?" followed by "why are you not?" and "what's your plan after you graduate?" with "why did you choose engineering in the first place?" I've been answering the last question for the past 4 years so I'm really grateful that my relatives had finally come to the realisation that no matter how many times they ask me, my answer will always be the same. Maybe they'd already found my answers repetitive.

On a lighter note, I'd been talking to some of my relatives who came back from overseas for visiting. They are either working or studying there. I've always been keen on relocating and I've been looking for job opportunities overseas too. Overseas job experience will definitely help in future job advancement but now I'm more interested in the thought of "living in another city" which I think is pretty romantic.

I'd also chatted up my cousins about their graduation trip (which was don't know how many donkey years ago). Mine is more or less settled. I'm joining my internship friends for a 14 days tour around Hong Kong and Taiwan. Actually, I'm still thinking about it. I still haven't really given up on the idea of backpacking in Aussie but dear lord I couldn't find anyone who's interested and I don't have the balls to do it alone. My cousins encouraged me to go backpacking, with friends of course. To them, Hong Kong and Taiwan are pretty much like a weekends retreat and I do share the same sentiment. But I believe that the companion is pretty important for trip like that and I rather miss it than to go with the wrong people.

Regardless, I still bear a teeny weeny bit of hope that either my friends would suddenly change their minds or some other friends would express interest in backpacking before I purchase the air ticket.

This is an epic I-feel-that-I'm-pathetic moment

It sucks to wake up to an empty house with no food, not even bread, biscuits or instant noodle. I thank god when I found boiled water in the water dispenser. I can't imagine what it's like if I've to drink water directly from the tap though Singapore tap water is rather safe for consumption. Under normal circumstances, I won't complain or even flinch cos it's kind of a daily thing and I'm quite used to it. But not today. I'm feeling quite terrible from the flu. My nose is blocked, my taste buds are useless, I don't sound like myself and the thick phlegm is making it difficult for me to swallow. On top of that, I'm feeling the "nua-ness" cos by the drugs.

I'm the kind of person that love to have the whole house to myself. I can blast my choice of musics, sing as loudly as I want, do my awkward dance, read my thoughts out loud or walk around naked (just kidding!). But now, it'll be nice if there's someone to check on me, ask me if I'm feeling better, remind me to take my medicines, put the palm on my forehead to check if I'm having a fever (tho I've very sure I'm not). This is one of the moments when I feel that being single sucks.

Back to normal

Today marks the day where I officially get my ass off the couch and resume my life as per normal. All my tuitions have started and I'm already missing my lectures. Bravo! If there's anything I wanna do right for this semester, it's to be consistent with my school work. That's quite a challenge! As you might already know, my one and only aim now is to graduate on time regardless how I fare. I've spent way too much time to figure out that I've no absolute interest in engineering or anything to do with physics.

I've also realised perhaps I've taken too many tuitions this year. I almost forget that I'll be graduating in May and if everything goes smoothly, I'll be heading for my grad trip and diving myself into a full time job (hopefully it'll be something I like) after that. Oh wells, things will sort themselves out when time comes. Anyway, I could really use some extra cash for the first year as a fresh grad. I wanna clear my debt (school fee) as soon as possible.

It's all about timing

And I choose now to fall sick. Few days to the start of school.

Hmmm.. Maybe I'm allergic to school!

Damaged- Cathy Glass

To me, a good book stirs emotions. That's why I prefer non-fiction (and my sister said that I'm boring). Nothing beats a vivid narration of an experience. I teared more than a few times while reading Damaged. And had to take a few breaks because it was too intense.

How broken could a child be? I could only try to understand.

Art of Seduction- Robert Greene

"No one is born timid; timidity is a protection we develop. If we never stick our necks out, if we never try, we will never have to suffer the consequences of failure or success. If we are kind and unobtrusive, no one will be offended- in fact we will seem saintly and likeable. In truth, timid people are self-absorbed, obsessed with the way people see them, and not at all saintly. "

Goodbye, crappy 2011

It'd been an eventful year. I'd gone through more than what I did in my entire 22 years of life. They were both good and bad. No matter what I'm glad 2011 had come to an end. I hope 2012 will be a decent one. Oh wells, what can be worse. But then again, you never know.

If there's one thing 2011 had left me with, it's becoming cynical.

Thanks a lot to these people who keep me sane in 2011. I seriously have no idea what I'll do without them. (I wanted to include a photo with WQ but for god's sake we din take ANY photo in 2011 though we hangout almost every week. He's a pretty good listener. Thanks for listening to all my craps!) Ever notice the older you become, the lesser friends you have? Maybe because it's harder to trust and open up.

Last but not least, thanks a lot, my baby sister who behave much like the older one. Though I've been criticising all your 2012 resolutions, I very much hope that you fulfil every bits of them. Winks.

Once again, goodbye, crappy 2011! Bring it on, 2012!

So, I've been living on credits ALL ALONG?!!

Just as I thought I finally have some spare cash, my credit card bill came.

Maybe I could wait till January before I pay up. But I've got a strong feeling that I'll forget all about it, like I always do and the interest is no joke. And it's not as if I'll be any richer in January. I guess I'll stick to eating grass and drinking air for the moment or at least until all my tuitions resume.  

It sucks to be broke. IT SUCKS!

/Edited
I just paid the bill. Heartache is an understatement!